Saturday, February 11, 2012

Chapter 3: With God, ALL Things ARE Possible


26 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man
this is impossible, but with God all things
are possible”.
(Matthew 19:26 NIV)

With God, the sky is not the limit, it is only the beginning.  I want to encourage you not to give up on your dreams.  If you’re in a slump or feeling like life is never going to change, understand that your destiny has never changed, your dreams have never left, they are only on hold.  If you still want to go back to school, you can do it!  If you still want to open your own business, you can do it!  If you still want that dream job, you can achieve it!  If you still want to travel, you can do it.  If you still want to buy that house or car, you can do it!  If you still want a husband, he will come!  Peace.  Be still and know that He is God and that He ALWAYS has your best interest at heart.  Seek first the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness and ALL good things shall be added unto you (Matthew 6:33 NIV).

When I got pregnant at 18, I became plagued with the feeling of shame, disappointment and anger.  I felt like I had really messed up.  Prior to my 14th birthday, I had big dreams.  I wanted to be a teacher (or a lawyer), I wanted to adopt children in need, write books and open my own community center.  But, when I started high school, I got distracted and started on a path FAR from the right path.  Shortly before I got pregnant, I remember being in one of my fits of madness and telling my parents I had no intention of going to University.  I think they thought I had lost my mind (which I had) because they knew just as well as I did that I had great potential and  would be wasting my life if I didn’t go to university.  They told me that attempting to get through life without a proper education was not an option, but I didn’t care what they said.  I was ‘grown.’  Thank God my rebellion was no match for my Heavenly Father.  

I know now that God allowed me to get pregnant to force me back onto the right path because the path I was on was reckless endangerment, comparable to a car going down a steep hill with no brakes.  The devil knew I had Greatness in me and he was trying to take me out.  So, God allowed me to get pregnant so I would get back on track.  He knew my heart.   At that point in my life, abortion or adoption would not be the options for me because I needed my daughter more than she needed me and God knew that.  My pregnancy seemed like a mistake, but God doesn’t make mistakes.  

Needless to say, I started university the following year after her birth and I’d be lying if I said it was easy.  It wasn’t.  But, I knew deep down inside that I wasn’t a failure and I could not fail her.  She needed to see the Greatness in me so she could recognize the Greatness in herself.  I had to make a complete turnaround and focus on making it all right for her and for me.  That doesn’t mean that I miraculously ended up on the straight and narrow, definitely not, because I tried almost everything under the sun to fill the void, shame, confusion and unforgiveness I was carrying in my spirit since her conception.  But His Greatness wouldn’t let me or my dreams die, even when I continued to mess up over and over again.
  
Eventually, thank God, almost 6 years after her birth, I reached the point that I had had enough.  Enough of the pain, enough of the disappointments, enough of the heartbreak, enough of the anger, enough of the selfishness, enough of ‘life’ according to the world.  I wanted more, I needed more, for myself and my daughter because I was starting to sink again.  But with God, all things are possible.  We fail in achieving our desires and reaching our potential when we trust ourselves and man more than we trust God.  But God is not man, therefore He doesn’t lie (Number 23:19, Psalms 118:8 NIV).  He’s not the man that you met at the club that promised you he would love you and ended up cheating on you.  He’s not the mother or father who was supposed to cherish you but instead neglected and abused you.  He’s not the friend that smiled with you everyday since you were five years old only to turn around and stab you in the back twenty years later.  And He is definitely not the man that you had sex with that wanted you to get pregnant, promised to take care of you, to be there for you, love you through it all only to turn around and break your heart.  That wasn’t God so don’t lower Him to man’s status and standards.  Trust in Him in ALL you do and lean not on your own understanding.  Acknowledge Him in ALL you do and He will direct your path (Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV). 

My biggest fault during my attempts to ‘fix’ my life was trying to control things that I had no control over.  Which resulted in more anger, more disappointment and more pain.  I had to learn what it truly meant to let go and trust God.  And I’m still learning, everyday.  Whether its with your children, your finances, your health, your relationships, your shelter, your food or clothing (Luke 12:22-31, Matthew 6:25-34 NIV).  Trust in Him.  He always makes a way for those who truly believe His Word and allow Him to work in their life.  Because with Him, ALL things are  possible.

In His Presence Declarations

  •  With God, ALL things are possible
  • God is FOREVER Faithful.  He does NOT Lie
  • I WILL Trust God with ALL my Heart
  • I WILL NOT Give up on my Dreams
  • God has a Plan for My Life.  And it’s ALL Good.
  • I Will Take the Limits OFF of God (2 Corinthians 9:8 NIV)

 



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